No more

No more

Sweet kiss,
Tight hugs,
Thoughtful texts,
No more.

Heartaches,
Drown in tears no more.
Excuses,
Forking up lies no more.

Overwhelmed
with heartaches,
love and lies.
Dead but alive.

Love no more,
Sympathize no more,
Feel no more.
That's what I am - a hollow heartless lass.


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Random

Sometimes I think I could not care less about what others might think of me as I'm the one living the life and not them. At times, I cared too much of what others say and judge me. It hurts to suffer the consequences of making a mistake but somehow, I guess every human being should suffer for their mistakes. I know not about making a proper amendments as I was thought to directly forgive others and forget their mistakes without even uttering the word 'Sorry' or 'I apologize' but considering every breathing soul is a unique entity requiring different styles.

Poem - Insignificantly Worthless

Insignificantly worthless

A pair of deadly eyes,

Unlike anything before,

A stare,

Enough to shaken every breathing soul.

That husky voice,

The deep, deep voice

Soothes all aches, calms every sadness.

Yet, that same voice,

Destroys.

Your caring side,

Invaded such flimsy robust-ed hub of mine

Resulting frantic beating pulsation and reaction

Sudden emotion impediment

Causing irreparable tear down,

A break down perhaps even

dis-continue-ment of spirit.

Glad to be of amusement,

with the laughs, thoughts and thinking.

What’s more of the hours spent talking,

And texting.

Never had it coming

That I would fall this hard

Feelings are thought sacred

Somehow, were considered worthless.

Insignificantly worthless.

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Speeches

Hello. I noticed the fact that I seldomly update this space. Let's just say my hands are pretty tied at the moment - well, most moment. However, here's some piece I'd like to share. Recently,

1. I have started to write - again. But this time, I'm not up for the journal/ diary type of writing. I began writing poem. Yes, POEM.

2. I have fallen in and out of love too many times till the point that I lost count and am really afraid of jumping or diving in again at this moment.

3. I have discovered who my real friends are even though sometimes I feel like I wanna chop off all their hairs and perform voodoo stuff to make them listen. But hey, at least they're here when I need them the most. They ALWAYS are.

4. I find myself addicted to VAMPIRE DIARIES. And I think Ian Somerhalder is sooo HOTTTT.

5. I realized that life is sometimes a bitch. But no matter shitty the day might be, tomorrow is going to be another day just like the quote below

'Going to be a kick-ass day. NO matter what your circumstances may be.Seems that is,the ONLY way to tackle it..Anyone?' Quoted from Ian Somerhalder.

6. I realized one of the most important part in life is to take risks and chances being given to me even though I'm scared of doing it alone. After all, if I keep on sitting in my comfort zone, when am I growing right ?

Poem - Significant

Significant

Twas the day,

Sunny yet cloudy,

Lovely,

And there it was.

A hundred and seventy,

Red headed-Ly,

round, fulfilling eyes,

Captivating,

Mesmerizing

Long dark brownish locks,

Silver eyes,

Shining upon the moonlight rays,

Dearly charming

And hypnotizing

Strong lingering looks

Exchanged,

Hanging around

Enthralled each soul

Miniscule the minute

Insignificant body

Alhamdulillah

SIFE training held 27th to 29th January 2012 helped me gain new insights. Thank you. During training, I realized loads of things.

1. I'm going to be really busy with SIFE stuff, presentation, annual dinners.
2. Preparing for projects.
3. Studying

Therefore, I concluded, to be working all the time. Sorry Jase, I've decided not to continue o ur relationship anymore. I'll do it my way just as you wish with yours.

It's done

Alright. We broke up. I know I posted the new of our get together and all. But the truth is, yea. Our relationship ended. Reason ? Because of the stupid mistake I made. Oh well. Lesson learnt.

1. Don't trust guys anymore (for the time being).
2. Long-distance relationships don't work that well unless both parties understand each other very well.
3. Trust your partner (if you don't, there's no point of starting a relationship).
4. Try your very best to work things out even though it is just a minor misunderstanding.

I know I might not be a really great or a good girlfriend that is able to be there for the boyfriend 24/7 but note that I'll try my best to do so.

To Jason, take care. I wish you well. Indeed, neither you nor I have the intention to start afresh again. I know.

2012

Today's date marked January 22nd 2012. Twenty-two days after new year. Still, I felt like the year is still the same (2011). Perhaps it was because there are not much happening events that took place. Nevertheless, it's still a good year. I'm grateful to have been able to breathe in the air today and will keep on breathing for the next day everyday - Insyallah.

I'm more active on facebook and twitter currently as I find it much entertaining to stay connected with friends as well as keeping myself filled with the latest gossip and news on tonnes of stuff.

Alrighy then. Hmm. I started this year (2012) with exams in which I believe most public university students are experiencing the same thing. However, I would say that my results for this semester would considerably not be a good result. Why ? Simple. LINGUISTICS. I wish there's be a system where I could 'donate' one grade of my previous marks to make it better. Still, it's just a dream.